Sunday, August 3, 2008
haii. i felt so sad. cos having some conflicts wif my darlings.
friday having my lab lesson, as usual checking my email and read blog.
den read mar and ame blog, den i saw mar write there is no more m.a.r.
i was so stunt and sad.
sms mar, asking her what happened but she keep say nth.
i become more worried, i know sth happened tat y she say no more m.a.r
but y she say nth when i asked.
den i keep ask, finally she say.
i wanted to go for gem cos if don go my attendance will fall below 75% and cant take exam.
but after seeing her sms saying, "..u going for gem, if u going i don tink i will be going.."
gosh. i m so sad and super emo.
in e end, i nv go for my gem cos i really sad and went home.
i didnt know what to do, i m so lost.
cried on my way home. haii.
i didnt know what to do.
worrying that if i didnt go gem, i will surely get debar from exam.
but i really no mood to go for my gem.
indeed, i nv go for gem. stayed at hm sobbing and wanting to stay at hm de whole day
and nt doing anything but stil have badminton wif my classmates at 3pm.
i know that if i continue to stay at hm, i will become more sad.
so i went for badminton & worryin about my gem.
@ least i felt much better after sweating.
i know i have to get mc for my gem.
so went to see a doc after my badminton, and it cost me $40!
so x. consultant $22, medicine $16. ): so heartpain.
arghh..
so sad. so lost.
can someone tell me what to do.
todae, suppose to meet mar and ame up for a talk but mar got sth on so in de end
we didnt meet up.
den i stayed @ hm to emo cos i really didnt know what to do and don feel like doin anythin.
emo-ing in action. hai.
feelin that i have lost 2 important person in my life and yet doing nth abt it onli but to emo at hm.
haii. i hate those feelin.
when slpin, mar sms me askin what i doin. i tot she is free to want meet up.
den i ask y, she say jus askin onli.
abit stunt to receive her sms, but this mean she stil care for me despite quarrellin.
that sms, make my heart melted. we know that we love one another. but...
sigh.
Labels: jus want to be left alone
